It seems like every time I look up another week has passed.  I’m in a good spot so I guess that’s why everything is flying.  When you want to savor the moment, it slips away.  When you can’t wait to look BACK on a day, it just won’t quit.  At least that’s what it seems like in the present.  When you finally look back, you realize that time has always passed too quickly.

Ellie is already 14 months old.  Abby’s 2nd birthday was just a few days ago.  It seems like YESTERDAY that I was pregnant for the first time and it also seems like YESTERDAY that I was bringing Ellie home from the hospital. 

I feel sorry for people who aren’t experiencing life.  Let me explain.  I see so many people who just drift through this life.  It’s like they just float on top of the water, sometimes getting a little wet, but for the most part they never get in too deep.  That’s sad to me.  I think I know fairly well that getting in deep isn’t always roses.  And at times, getting in deep may even be barely keeping our nose above the water.  But it’s the experiences in life- the highs and lows- that make for a story.

There are probably people who read this and think I’m crazy- they would much rather coast through life, not making anymore waves than necessary.  They don’t want to mess up their hair. They got a really nice swimsuit and don’t want to get in the water.

I love a good story.  The most intriguing stories with the most depth are the ones that hit the Bestseller’s list.  I am reading “The Shack.”  I personally think it’s awesome and I’m almost finished with it.  But the story is birthed out of a deep tragedy.  And it is enlightening others like me- it’s drawn me in and I’ve learned from it!  I know that’s a lame example, but here’s one that’s not so lame.

I have tons of hits on my blog for people searching for keywords:  premature, pregnancy, preeclampsia, grief, baby girl, gestational diabetes, etc.  If they read my story, maybe they’ll be enlightened.  Maybe they’ll consider my story and learn something from it.  I hope that they meet my Jesus.

Like I said before, I’m in a good place right now.  And there are others who are not.  My heart & prayers have been so focused on AH & SS and their story and I know they’re not in a good place.  But I want to promise you something:  you will be again.  And just like I, you will be proud of your LIFE.  You will be proud of the story.  It doesn’t mean that you’re happy to have gone so deep, but… well, I can’t really do justice by explaining it.  It has to be felt- felt by God’s Spirit.  There will be a new normal, but it will be yours and it will be normal.  And one day, you’ll look up and see that someone else has been drawn into your story and their life is changed by it.

So dive on in.  Take the waves full on.  You can’t change the fact that the waves come, but you can control how they move you.  Feel the power of the wave and the protection of the Wave-Maker all at once.

SS/AH- I hope that you don’t mind that I wrote this with you in my heart.  I read your blog from this morning/last night and I identify with you.  You are in my prayers and I regard you as a friend even though we’ve never physically met on this Earth.  I believe we are kindred.